Girls should generally be loud and fucked up or I usually don’t talk to them. Except if they are quiet and fucked up in which case they are even better in some ways.

—Courtney Love

(Source: emilybones, via allwasteandvoid)

I can’t believe it’s been about ten years since I’ve seen you… in my head you are still exactly the same, although if I saw you today, I probably wouldn’t even know that it was you. Happy birthday sweetheart.

I’ve missed you like crazy today and it’s the first day it’s rained in as long as I can remember.

I dreamt that I was a 911 operator. I answered the phone and you said, “911? I need help. My best friend is missing.”

I had a dream about you last night. you were exactly the way you were the last time I saw you. you hugged me and told me how happy you were to see me. only this time you went with me instead of him. I think of you all the time and wonder when I will get to see you again. when I do, I hope that you realize that it wasn’t my fault and that I haven’t been the same without you. I miss you with all of my heart… ♥

bought a bunch of cute stuff at XXI yesterday. yeah I know, almost blasphemy right? but they had a huge rack of black sweaters that caught my eye and they were on clearance!

this cute girl from a class last term works (worked?) there so I’m not the only one with good taste that walks into that store. and none of them were the asymmetrical ugly one sleeve things either…!

evan said I already have too many sweaters but I argued that a girl in portland can never have too many of them. I walked out a happy girl… and then promptly hid the ugly & embarrassing yellow bag in my sexy VS tote. ♥

I am really worried about my best friend right now. I hope she is alright and contacts me soon… :(  ♥

I chopped off all of my hair cuz it was damaged from bleaching it too much, just when it was getting long again too. deja vu from two years ago? le sigh. maybe this time I’ll learn… until then, I’m rocking a red pixie cut and it’s actually pretty cute. ♥

in the past week I had ear surgery and one of my favorite aunts ever died very unexpectedly. valium is my friend… ♥

had an amazing birthday weekend. ice cream cake, lots of new clothes, shoes, stockings & love. oh and $$$ too. ♥

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY